• 1:30 AM, 24 April 2009
make upp!
omg. she is so damn pretty. i love her videos and tutorials.
giving it a try. blue-ish.
LOL. so idiotic.
i dno how to use mascara =(
gosh, i really wish that i can have a make up set.
brushes, different colour eye shadows. i have too little. i barely have choice to use.
ARGH. a new thing added into my wishlist.
• 11:02 PM, 23 April 2009
ladeelaa
LOL. vincent -
anyway, the other day, mummy put me and babe at kiulap around 2 thn she went jalan with friends. we went to play at arcade and shopped around look at clothes. walk around hand in hand.
then we went to expressions to chill.
mwahs
smilee!
teeeeeeeth
babe ah, never knw how to smile one.
i cut my hair. so stooopid the fringe soo annoyingg
its short again
CHIHTSAI!
before i cut my hair.
babes with my bag.
nothing much with life.
missing my friends (L)
missing 3y again..
yesterday babe came my house.
actually practicals was until 3 ma. thn like i have no transposrt back until like 6 so i asked jaslyn to send me kiulap.
thanks alot jaslyn! =)
thn we walked to kiulap mall to play again. ooo
puzzle bobble IS SO GRR WHEN we lose T.T
anyway, im on a diet? something like that.
that day i din eat since 2 pm until like next day.
so now im cutting down.
BUT hahaha. yday i eat spaghetti thn go buy sweet and sour fish right away.
thn my friends were like O.O
but yumm - food is ma life.
i wud live at the side of the road but need money
FOR FOOOOOOOOD.
thas all i need. and family and babe and friends :D
ladeedah. cant wauiut for after mid year!
i can only study chem. its so effin fun. but other subjects im totally blank at it.
blah.
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE IN MIDS!
which is still long.
and my aunt is coming..
oh, and im geetting interested in hair and make up now. i even watch tutorial for it,
the girls shud so come over one day to make up and be vain. YEAH BAByy!
after exams deal?
i wanted to make up on babe. but neh.. my feelings may change after seeing him as girl =p
HAHAHAHA. kidding honey. love ya!
• 7:00 AM, 19 April 2009
thankyou
BTW, meitihng!!!i went to watch coming soon yesterday.
IT WAS SO SO ....
scary?...............................NO.
disappointing.
it wasnt scary. it was like shocking only.
i rate it like 6/10.
BLEAH -
Jangan Tegur was scarier. for me la. i dno. i retard sometimes.
my DARLINGS, asked me to blog.
i have pics but i cant post it up now. sorry. cos lappy cacat.
annd i cut my hair,
LIKE DAMN SHORT.
but wad to do. spoilt hair, hve to cut.
and HE CUT My fringe so damn blooody short lo. so now like..
as if i have fringe. but not reli la.
APAKAN? o.0
this morning, i print all my friends and baby and family's pic and put in an album
so far i did me and babes, family, jwen and esther,
maria michee lilian and other friends are coming up.
i stopped doing it cos.. my printer RAN OUT OF INK -.-
anyway,
babe, thanks for evything.
when i felt scared, u held me so close to you.
tho u were kinda scared. but still hug me and help me cover my ears.
and u use lame excuse saying ur hands tired to cover my ear but
actually u just wanna cover ur ears =p cos u scared!
nevertheless, i felt your warmth and how u cared.
when we're walking around, you held my hand so tight,
iknow how u worried about me getting lost.
u make me smile all the time and giving me great memories,
as great as my friends memories.
u karaoke-d with me and sing like nobodys business.
SO CUTE.
LOL. i find it so sweet when you keep telling me
that u need me in ur arms.
eeee. makes me melt.
y;know i love u.
IM SO SORRY no pictures.
HIATUS for now.
• 4:10 AM, 13 April 2009
lalalla
LOL. sandy, lilian toook it
me, michee, lilian, vincent and meithing hung out yday.
in mall. 90 percent of the time we're eating. LOL.
SO COOL.
but other than that we were shopping.
i had fun tho.
ayamku, escapade, swensens, cheezebox
swensons~! WOO. damn nice to eat.
it looks good no? we went shopping while waiting for the food to come
MMM. michee, u missed this =(
me and lilian hii!
me and my lover!
I SO love the effects. its in a fitting room.
me and meithing (L)
lilian AND MICHEE!
vincent and lilian!
HAHAHA. we keep making vincent laugh until his jaw pain. so this picture end up :(
DADDY!
what i wore to mall
THE CHEMICAL THINGY! soo cool man. it changes from orange to brown thn to
PINK. but pink is wrong =.=
COOL RIGHT?
LOL.. bran cut one
experiment.
me and my dearest (L)
I LOVE THIS SHIRT
ANYWAY, yday was the last day i can go out with friends. other than that i REALLY have to study. i've been doing that but it aint getting into my head.
LALLA.
this wednesday will the last day i can go out with babyy.
thn he'll be busy and so will i be.
hmm.
hiatus from here i suppose?
EXAMS ARE SO DAMN CLOSE! T.T
so so frustrating!
• 10:43 PM, 07 April 2009
du-da-do
I LOVE TODAY!ITS SO FUN.
hmm. JUST NOW, me and lilian was like laughing at "someone" who keeps playing with her hair.
EWH MAN.
hahaha. anyway, it gets me laughing how vincent andric and lilian was.
SO FUNNY. during CB,
LOL LOL LOL!!
well, vincent screamed at me again =_=
then andric made a "flying star"
he forgot to use the word "shooting star" FUNNY. thn he kept on throwing it at vincent, thn vincent got a scrap of paper. he crumpled it and threw it an andric going "ANDRIC! COMET!"
AHAHAHAHAH, thn vinc decide to throw to lilian th star.
HAHAHAH.
omg. lilian so funny,
she was pressing it into vincents ear man.
SO GALI.
and recess, someone wore lacey bra *woots*
and lilian was being kundur after that.
with maria and michee.
im being so so random.
meithing busted darren's ass man.
so scary. and ARUL was so cute.
xD
allala.
wud u rather be called a bitch? or useless?'
do u like d process of shaving your armpit?
guys : rather be gay or gigolos?
girls : lesbian or slut?
ergh o.O
vincent & lilian, i lurvee (L)
bbut lilian more =p
after school, i went home to study thn i head for drums.
until 5.30.
thn me and babe paktoh.
we went jalan around kiulap, makan and makan.
DAYEM, izan's hair is like.. gREEN.
like seaweed green.
i wanna highlight ONE purple strip next time when im 21.
hahaha.
not now.
me and babe talked and talked, laughed for no reasons at all.
aww, but i still love my silly boy WHO NEEDS TO FLOSS aS promised.
babe dig the meat just now. BLUEK.
=p
and well, i fell down at the stairs i missed a step.
came back around like 9.30?
thas my first to come out dat late.
but i love love love today,.
IN for today:
i love that i had fun with friends.
i love maths today.
i love i hanged out with babe
i loved that i love my day
OUT for today :
rough time with babe
vincent screamed at me.lilian was feeling down at one point.
i fell down.
i dont get chemistry :'(
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ILOVE YOU BABY (L)
mwahs.
missing you.
PHOTO TAKING TOMORO :O
SMMILE EVELIBODEH!
• 12:55 AM,
what i hate about myself?
- i hate that i am a bitch at times- i hate that i always go "O.o okaaaaay"i try to stop.
- i hate that i am mean at times
- i hate that i am fat
- i hate that i eat SO much
- i hate that im stupid and mumy wan me go tuition'
- i hate the fact that when im with friends. i always got no random subject to bring up
- i hate that i have a mole on my nose.
- i hate that i have fat thighs
- i hate that i get jeallous over friends and boyfriend easily.
- i hate that i am selfish
- i hate that i try to be a good friend but end up worst enemies.
- i hate that i am actually listening to meithing to do this (=p)
• 5:28 AM, 06 April 2009
AHA. random
ANSWER ME.if ur rich,
wud u donate 1/4 of it OR spend it all on yourself, and not even on ur gf/bf?
OR u wud do both?!
im doing this out of randomness.
no offence
u want miaaw miaw?
NO
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.
.
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i give u GRRRRRRRRRRRAAAWR!
• 1:31 AM,
06.04.09
today i woke up at 6.15. thn i changed and had breakfast.i went to school with an empty tummy hoping i will be thin. but no.
daddy gave money. n looking at food makes me wanna eat @_@
so yea.
chemistry first period.
LOL man. teacher was like scolding thn she was like "i give u one more chance" she keep repeating it. but everyone was laughing away at their own jokes. FUNNEH. her expression is like =.=
thn it was BM. nothing much la. tcher just tok tok. OH YA. i was copying smthing i cant see cos of big heads in fron of me.
so i moved to the side to see and hit sandy. LOL. so painful. her specs went to the side made her look like lau ah ma :P
hahahhaha. teck tzu saw and he laughed so damn loud man.
and thn PHYSICS. T.T ms tay changed my lover (Lilian) to my enemy(....)
ergh. thank god brian changed seat with him if not like. i will never study.
SO SOI MAN.
lilian sitting next to her two favourite =p
after physics is maths. ms ong said "wang ba dan" LOL.
and she kept on talking in malay .. and the class did not understand it.
recess. i went down to eat, thn when i came up, i was talking with maria, thn she squeezed me bone near the neck. OMG. so painful.
so i tried on michee while she was talking to lilian,
after like 10 secs thn she went "OUWW!!"
lagging. hahahaha.
after recess, was english, it was ssoooo boring. have to write a composition. ergh.
thn.. MIB.
cikgu normah ofcos, as usual, talk to wall.
sandy was doing compo man.
brian and tecktzu play game on phone..
CB, huh!
VINCENT screamed at me, lilian and maria.
HE SCREAMED AT ME the loudest. he said he replaced me with a new best friend. thn i said i replaced him with lilian, my new best friend.
thn he screamed at me saying "I DIDNT WAH. I PICK IT UP!!!!!!!!"
thn i went O.O
and thn next thing, he compliment me like trying to change subject.
PFFT VINCENT!
sandy asked me wad to wear for her bday.
she drew leggings which looked like spring.LOL.
damn funny.
anyway, after school, went home to eat. thn i did my hw and study till now. now im blogging :D
see, told u i am gona tell all details of school. hahaha.
• 8:30 PM, 04 April 2009
photography
i love the way u play with me
i love the way u hold me
i love the way u talk to me
i love this feeling
• 7:57 PM,
the trust we have in each other
lust.
Love and happiness between us (L)
iloveyou.
when you look me in the eyes.
models : sabena & calvin
HAPPY 1 YEAR 10 MONTHS BABY!
happy 22nd monthsary -
i love u lots. thanks for making me happy all these year. and soon to be the second year.
thanks for everything u have done, thanks for sacrificing just to make me happy.
the feelings u give me are unexplainable.
it feels great to have a boyfriend like you.
the way u love me like no other, the way u look at me & they way you sayang me.
EE - LOVE YOU LOTS!
the first time i hugged you, i felt all the tingles in my body like a rollercoaster.
we used to be so paiseh right? so funny.
but yet i miss that feeling.
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yesterday baby came over, we did some photoshooting for fun.
and at the same time we're celebrating our 22nd.
cos today babyy go badminton and leave me alone. hahaha. no la
hmm, theres nothing else to blog besides baby.
maybe evy single detail that happens in school, i shall blog! :D
starting tmoroh.
• 7:41 AM,
whats my problem?
i feel so sasak right now.like im really confused.
everything i do still comes back to me, this spoilt little brat.
something like that,
i just hate this moment in my life.
im so confused.
i cant cry it out because i dont know the reason im crying.
im really mad, but i dont know wad to let my anger out on.
im sad but i cant express it, cus it'll end up shitty.
i try to be happy, tho i kinda am, theres still something bugging me.
i dont know who to talk to, and if i do, i'll get so fucking emotional.
i keep it to myself yet i feel like screaming.
whats my problem?
i dont know?
i need a psychiatrist.
i need to hang myself somewhere in grand canyon just to scream my lungs out.
i may laugh, but i may not mean it.
i may smile but it cud be fake.
i need my time alone but i still need someone.
i feel like im troubling ppl's life.
as if im a disturbance.
i really really want to type soo many things out here.
but i cant. cause i know i'll get into trouble.
wad cn i do? type in my microsoft word, print, and paste it in my room?
even if i do that, it will be never ending.
AAAAAGHHHHHH!
i feel like crying so badly.
but i have to stay strong?
deep down inside - i AM not.
fakala this -
i wish i had a corner i can sit in quietly.
i try to solve other ppls problems n i cant quite sort out mine.
i wana get over life.
i feel horrible. i feel terrible.
i feel happy. i feel joyful
i feel mad. i feel hurt.
i feel sad. i feel depressed.
all these at ONCE.
i mean it, all at once, its hell.
its the worst feeling in the world.
i wanna go lay n rest my eyes, hope it'll stay that way forever.